Here's a man that I was supposed to be starting something with and now I really just don't know where we stand. I mean, we have an AMAZING connection. He's hilarious. When we talk, we can talk for hours about everything. I like him, we vibe well. he's as much of an asshole as I am. But in a good way. We have an amazing amazing amazing sexual chemistry.
But I'm not sure where I stand with him. I know what I want from him. I would love a relationship. Jordan, now Jordan I won't ever have anything with. Dorenzo? I can see myself with him, and him wanting to be with me. It's just that he's so busy with work that we haven't been talking much lately... not like we did when we first started talking. And I really would like to talk about some things with him. Like where we stand, what we're doing.. If we're always going to just have a sexual relationship with one another. I dont' want that. I want to be with him. I love the sex but it's him that I really am digging. I hope that I get to talk to him about this soon. Cause it's going ot drive me crazy. I'vebeen seeing him since january so I think it's about a decent time for this type of conversation. The last thing I want to do is go away to camp and have him find some other girl or something.
I'm just... way too scared to bring it up. Like I've been nothing but hurt and let down before that i would hate to lose yet another person in my life that i Really care for. but I just know that i can't continue to keep doing this to myself. I want someone that loves me. It's not just about sex. sex is SO good dont' get me wrong, but dammit I need the commitement. I need to take care of someone and grow with someone.
I would really like to do that with him, but I don't know where we stand. And i'm too scared to ask. Balls.
I would really like to do that with him, but I don't know where we stand. And i'm too scared to ask. Balls.
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